I need to just pick a journal and stick to it. I also need to decide if I’m going to censor this or not…do I want to actually put what I’m feeling and thinking out there for everyone to read (I don’t think I can do that anymore)? I guess for awhile I’ll just write what I feel like.
I’ve had an awesome time being home; lots of ups and downs (mostly ups). I’m at the point where I’m enjoying my time here and don’t want to leave. I apologized to Laura last night for the way I’ve been acting in Las Cruces. I shouldn’t be acting the way I am and I am truly going to make an effort to change. Being the sad, lonely and depressing girl doesn’t suit me very well.
Just in the past few days I have felt my spirits come alive. That is NOT to say that I don’t enjoy my friends in Las Cruces (PLEASE believe me when I say that!!!!), it just means that I think I conduct myself in a different view here. Anyway, I am TIRED of talking about all of that. Moving on now…
I think I’m going to come up with some little goals or things to look forward to…something to basically motivate me. The first thing I have coming up is a couple weeks from now the boys are going to come down for Emily’s birthday. I’m WICKED excited for that to happen and also ridiculously happy that Emily will finally be 21 🙂 Heehee!! The second thing is Boston. I think Chris and I are seriously going to try to get out there this summer…and I would be more than happy if others wanted to tag along (HINT HINT). I was thinking about making a little detour to go see my Nanny and Uncle Sid and Aunt Gail in New York when we go out there…I would love to go on a train again. What else? Perhaps sometime during the summer there will be time for a little road trip somewhere…Denver, LA, San Antonio, Nashville…anywhere!
In an hour or so Laura and I are going over to Red Robin to have David make us some drinks – they better be damn delicious is all I have to say :-p After that we may see a movie and then later on tonight we’re going to kareokee!! Did I mention that it snowed today 🙂 Good times.